I pray you'll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know
Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your Grace
To a place where we'll be safe
La luce che to dai
I pray we'll find your light
Nel cuore resterò
And hold it in our hearts
A ricordarchi che
When stars go out each night
L'eterna stella sei
Nella mia preghiera
Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c'è
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe.
Sognamo un mondo senza più violenza
Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino
Simbolo di pace e di fraternità
La forza che ci dai
We ask that life be kind
E'il desiderio che
And watch us from above
Ognuno trovi amore
We hope each soul will find
Intorno e dentro a sé
Another soul to love
Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Just like every child
Needs to find a place,
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede che
Hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salverà
i remember this song...do you remember this song? the first time i heard it was when my two best friends from high school wished me well as they serenaded it to me at my debut. i freakin cried a river it meant so much to me! That was exactly four years ago. A lot can happen within four years...can u tell where i'm goin with this?...and yet, i still remember like it was yesterday..Kris and Janice sang it better, of course. =P i wrote an entry a few days ago, but didn't want to post it because i didn't want to sound too emo...but whatever dude. I can't let this moment pass me by...I've been savoring a lot of moments lately...these past few months, weeks, days, hours...because time likes to do exactly the opposite of what you want it to do...haha duh. if you dunno that by now...then i guess i just spoiled the surprise for u hah...
By the end of the day, i'll be back in the world i was in 4 years ago.for good. who knows what'll be thrown at me in the near future. but for the meantime, san deezy it is...i almost feel like it'll be unfamiliar territory...but i'll be in the swing of things in no time..i suppose..
i just want to say Thank You to those who've i've crossed paths with these past four years. No, it wasn't a blur because i remember a LOT. Certain events, and certain people more than others but i feel that i got out what i put into my "college experience." i still managed to get my degree what with work and getting involved in a variety of challenges that i set up for myself. I don't say it or feel it often, but i am lucky to have had it all. If I can do it, you can do it. haha wow how original was that? ahha but tis true. Kris and I were talking the other day about the day i was moving to irvine...you see, she was there for that, and i'm grateful to know that she's still there for my home coming...it's like i was living a pause here in irvine..the full-circle effect...yup...i'm comin around full circle.
Then here's where it gets difficult...it almost feels like i'm leaving behind something more here in irvine, than before with my first encounter of leaving sd.. what am i gonna do without it... him... .her... them... us... you? Where is it gonna be when i need to relax and reflect? where is she gonna be when i need to talk about, well, Life? where are they gonna be when i need to laugh? where is he gonna be when I need to be convinced into spontaneity? ...and the taco tuesdays, mai tai weds, D&B thurs, and grad party wknds?..where are you gonna be when i need that type of hug that only you can give to bring me to a better place? where are you gonna be when i need to just be? cus my Life won't just be around the corner anymore  ...they were right when they said that college is a significant point in your life... what i'll miss most is the people...my people, my network, aka my friends, sisTaus, co-workers, mentors, bosses, you name it...my second family. they've made my stay here extra special. Gosh it's so inconvenient when something GOOD has to end so soon.......it's never easy for people like me..cus i'm just a wuss and a sap haha who doesn't know how to make up her mind. hehe..oh Irvine.. u've instilled the BEST for me, and brought out the worst in me. oh boy, yes you have. thanks for testing me, but most of all for placing the right people in my Life at the right time. it's been GRAND knowing you... 
so here i am...moving, departing my nest, leaving what i know...and when time is on my side, i'll be"visiting" what i used to know ha. so this is what they call post-graduate syndrome or maybe i'm just bein over dramatic eh? iguess so...but who gives a beep..i do..and you do. haha otherwise you wouldnt be reading this. haha! gotcha there buddy. 
to you...
everytime I think of you I'll remember all the good times that we've had And everytime I sing this tune I will laugh, I will cry, I will close my eyes Cause I know that it won't be long Until we sing, we will write We will laugh away the night And the good times will never end When we meet again
And I'm gonna be somewhat lonely cause you know no one could ever fill your shoes As iron sharpens iron you have taught me how to be a stronger [wo]man And I look forward to the day I learn again We will sing, we will write We will laugh away the night And I know that it won't be long Until we meet again
Though I wish that I were with you now I know there's a reason for a space
I can dream of memories you're writing down And I look forward to that day And the smile on your face We will sing, we will write We might cry and we might fight And the good times will never end We will laugh, we'll relax, we'll reflect on the years we've past And I know that it won't be long, until we meet again [S.S.].
...thank you.
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me
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i'm happy for my friends who are taking their transitions very well so far. Life won't come very easy from this point on..and i admire those who've experienced the realities at younger ages due to circumstances. so like i've said before, i'm sad that i'm leaving irvine, but if it seems that i'm "happy" to move back to san diego..it's really only me preparing myself to move back. i'm not "not happy" i'm just accepting the fact that it has to be done..if that makes any sense at all. If i could choose, i'd stay here and find a job here. but i know that's not possible right now. I needa get settled before i can believe that i can handle certain responsibilities for myself. my parents wouldn't cut me off, however, i'm not into asking a lot from them since they've sacrificed so much already. it's time for me to try it on my own. like that whitney houston song "
any ways. off to work i go...
